This is the learning experience prototype in version 1.0.0-alpha.4 of a project codenamed Pansystellar. Everything here is in first-person, with the perspective being that of the reader. I'm the person reading this right now. Instead of me mentally replacing "you" with "I", this text already says "I".
Many sentences are present-tense, even if they are not true before I read them. For example, "I do blah blah blah" might actually mean "The author or authors want me to do blah blah blah from now on". I take advantage of this by ignoring the fact that I used to not do blah blah blah.
The first-person present-tense style makes it harder to tell that this text is the source of the resulting thoughts and mental transformations. I take advantage of this by imagining that my current thoughts and my mental transformations are the source of this text. An exception to this is when I notice that I disagree with part of this text.
Pansystellar is a web app that is intended to make each user's life better forever. If I'm okay with a severely watered down description of its essence, then I can call it an education platform. The learning experience's structure will grow into a hybrid between a cohesive book and a big catalog of courses. For historical reasons, the content temporarily has a very narrow scope.
Pansystellar is intended to not go against the Catholic Church's worldview.
Pansystellar's way of bundling modules is currently messy. For now, I don't expect a tidy experience. The purpose of some parts might be unclear as a result.
Pansystellar is a strong attempt to innovate. In the short term, this means high risk and high reward in the quality of things that are in Pansystellar. It's in an extremely early stage of development, so there's a high chance of the worst ideas still being present. Accepting what it tells me could have any result. At worst, a statement could be a hypothesis based on one personal experience of someone other than me, and I could be instructed to use a technique that hasn't been tested before.
Codeberg repository: https://codeberg.org/dullbananas/pansystellar
This work by the people listed below is licensed under CC BY 4.0. A copy of this license is available at https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/
Joseph Silva (https://dullbananas.com)
I select the true conditions below. These checkboxes toggle the visibility of some text.
I might want to be in a romantic relationship.When I "boldly" do something, I go all in on allowing myself to make a particular choice. Maybe it's counterintuitive or unexpected. So what? Maybe I lose conformity or comfort, but those losses are not sacrifices, and the lost things are basically nothing. Boldness involves being the boss.
Understanding words is not enough. Belief in what I'm about to learn must be fully experienced by all relevant parts of my mind at all relevant times.
Each item listed below is a posible type of brainwashing factor.
A brainwashing factor could ...
The word "brainwashing" might be too absolute. Until a better phrase is determined, I avoid being confused by how extreme it sounds. The possible effects listed above could be tiny or huge. Sometimes it's surprisingly deep brainwashing.
I ...
I maintain one or more logs of some personal events/thoughts of various levels of significance. They don't have to be very comprehensive. Daily logging is not needed.
Logs can help me ...
It's useful to include, along with the date of each, ...
An activity is either goal-oriented (done "for" something that could come after and as part of an arbitrarily big plan) or intrinsically motivated (contains or instantly causes the directly desired thing).
An intrinsically motivated activity, in many cases, is similar to grabbing balls out of a bucket, not seeing what I'm grabbing until it's out of the bucket, and not trying to pick only some balls. The results (possibly some causing others) of the activity are represented by the balls.
I don't confuse this classification with ...
My level of advancement correlates with ...
My level of advancement does not correlate with ...
I expose the fear part of my mind to everything I know about what brings me toward or away from happiness. Such knowledge includes my regrets. Doing this allows isolation, regret, and frustration to be treated the same as any other danger and be the ones that are fled from.
Fear might sometimes interfere with my freedom. One way to fix this problem is to imagine that I'm in a situation in which the wrongly feared thing resists oppression that I'm facing right now from the correctly feared thing. I fear the correctly feared thing more compared to the wrongly feared thing. The tendency to have less fear of not doing something if I don't imagine this situation is an irrational thing likely caused by the difficulty of fearing things that seem more abstract or are long-term consequences.
The correctly feared thing could be ...
I might benefit from acknowledging that I chose the oppressed state when I fail to do the courageous action. This is safe because I do not see my tendency to choose the wrong thing as an immutable trait of me.
It's usually wrong to feel like I'm being more normal by letting fear restrict me. In many cases, the normal perspective of danger and safety involves preferring the risky action over the lack of that risky action. The normalcy of an action with some risk being preferred over the lack of that action is demonstrated by how common it is to ...
I am skeptical of thoughts against doing a brave action that I earlier recognized as being good. It's the voice of an abuser. I ignore it to protect myself. I put effort into never forgetting at the last minute why I'm ignoring the voice.
A suspect of such an abuser could be ...
In most or all cases, instead of giving up, I patiently cling onto hope, even if it means spending hours or even longer getting the courage to do something.
Whenever I feel embarrassed about something I did, I ...
In this context, a "subject" is a person or thing.
Whenever there's a strong enough need to find a subject to select for something to make it good enough, I maintain a written list of what I might require in the subject or admire in subjects of this type.
I build such lists with the help of my ...
Sometimes, a separate list for observations or experiences of a specific subject is useful.
This gives me a less foggy perception of subjects. In a search for one, it resists the confirmation bias caused by the appeal of the idea that the search is easy or already finished.
I don't use such lists as a checklist. The lists keep on evolving. They are just additional input to intuition.
I put effort into never forgetting that the thing I risk facing or causing in social situations is usually just awkward emotions.
When there's multiple possibilities of people to interact with in the same time frame, it's typically good to allow the choice to be affected by ...
It's risky to allow the choice to be affected by information I'm only up to 99% sure about.
The above information may or may not have been exhaustive, and it's typically not useful. It's more likely to be useful in rare situations where the mentioned "possibilities" overwhelm me.
I never reduce my ambition unless I need to rest. Instead, I might modify the mental system that my ambition is applied to.
Whenever I discover a severe negative reaction to my behavior, I ...
For building a group that I will be in, it helps to methodically search for person(s) that will make the group good enough.
My pursuit of connection in the present can lead to a situation that benefits others such as ...
I can find energy from this love before I know who it's for.
My romantic journey is a subset of connecting with people. It is centered around movement away from being single, in other words closer to being married. Sometimes it's movement like when I walk, and sometimes it's movement like when water moves me because I'm too far away from the shore. Haha.
A romantic relationship is one of the types of the "groups of people" thing I was thinking about earlier, was not previously a different kind of a group of people, and exists when both people explicitly agree on it. A marriage is a type of romantic relationship (and more things including covenant), and hopefully was previously a normal romantic relationship.
A romantic relationship is good to the extent that being with the other person all the time for the rest of my life is good. Low standards are not sacrificial love because incompatibility would likely waste both people's time and make both people want to leave.
When entering a romantic relationship or marriage is a goal that I know I'm not already moving toward, my response is not just a highly focused plan, a bunch of goal-oriented actions, and thinking of most intrinsically motivated actions as being separate. The main problem with that is it wouldn't leave a lot of room for making my entire self known to other people. Instead, I treat the lack of movement as the last straw of the way of life that kept me away from the goal and deeply change myself. With the right response, there might be multiple missions, and I could move toward multiple things instead of only the "last straw" goal.
Useful but possibly oversimplified model: The 4 basic elements of the correct response include ...
Just because I start doing more interpersonal interactions only after starting to find a solution to not moving toward a romantic relationship, doesn't mean that I do the same amount of platonic interactions as before.
If I'm single, I can romantically interact with either one person exclusively or with multiple. If interaction stops with one person for at least 7 days, for any reason, I do not continue putting effort into maintaining exclusivity with that person. Otherwise, I make the choice that feels easier. For example, I don't always fight an urge to respond to romantic feelings for people other than the one I have the most logical reasons to pursue or the one I think I'm closest to being in a relationship with (there's lots of potential for illusions there), and I never cognitively overload myself. I do not expect exclusivity to be mutual when I'm single. I avoid limbo.
I can try to find patterns in what happens before crush toward someone begins or increases, and know which indicators are associated with very intense crush. I can use this knowledge to instantly predict that I am likely about to start having crush toward someone, which is useful in situations where I'm likely to regret not interacting with the person sooner, which is usually when there's not much time left with them (short camp, near end of high school, etc.).
Crush may be predicted based on many things, such as ...
I can use a crush prediction to have more energy, speed, and/or decisiveness in ...
I can gradually change the intentions of my thoughts and actions by habituating a different way for them to begin. In my romantic journey, I do this so that my intention is to create a good journey for my future romantic partner toward me. On most days, my intention will never be about my desires. This will include thinking "he/she didn't find me yet" instead of "I didn't find someone yet". When I might interact, I will think of the world as kinda like a stage that the other person is the audience of, or a story that the other person is the main character of. Of course, this is without the separation there usually is between an audience and a performance, and instead of exactly putting on a show, I'm possibly letting goodness be visible through me.
In addition to being in others' best interest, this can make me more mentally stable.
[This was written with casual connections in mind, not all uses of the word ghosting]
Ideally, the effect of ghosting should stay between me and ghoster, not slow down all of my social activity or cause a deadlock. This bad effect is more likely if I do things that stop me from interacting with other people while there's a lack of interaction with the ghoster, such as premature one-sided romantic exclusiveness on my part.
I can proactively avoid issues caused by ghosting or situations that seem like ghosting using an agreement with the other person to not ghost each other and to not blame the other person for not interpreting ghosting in a certain way. This is beneficial if I care a lot about someone. With this agreement, it's ethical to act under the assumption that something that looks like ghosting is actually another thing such as a technical issue, and I can resolve such an issue without the cognitive load and fear caused by the possibility that overcoming the issue would be intrusive.
In a confusing interpersonal situation, I will not make unnecessary jokes, because they could make the situation worse. For example, if I see something about the situation differently from what it actually is, I could make a joke about it that's offensive if it's about what the thing actually is instead of what I think it is, and this would offend the other person.
[This module sucks]
In connection, conditionality and waiting should be minimal. Deciding to be around people in a particular moment should not be fundamentally dependent on predicted benefits. For example, if I have a desire to find a relationship: when I'm in a room, and everyone else in the room is known to not fulfill my absolutely mandatory criteria (correct religion, single, etc.), I still consider making the most of the situation, within obvious limits. But I don't exhaust myself and I don't try to force platonic chemistry.
I will completely avoid ...
Connection in any situation can be good because ...
Perfection in my actions is not determined by the accuracy of other people's predictions and guesses and imagination. The side effect of other people suspecting a feeling (such as romantic feelings) that I have is morally good or neutral, even if such feelings are absent or indecisive or chaotic. Making a sacrifice to prevent that side effect is not always morally good or neutral.
Perfection is different from perfect imitation and perfect conformity.
An uncomfortable situation is usually not a forbidden situation.
I quickly become aware of ...
Each item listed below is an example of conversational continuation that I stay aware of
I never prematurely assume that ...
Each item listed below (or the fear or perception of it) is a possible brainwashing factor.
People treating publit transit mainly as just the poor people's mode of transit is a brainwashing factor.
Public transit agencies are likely to have a webpage for people new to using a mode of transit or to using that particular public transit. I look at that, even when it seems like I already know how to use it. Currently, this Pansystellar module is totally not a full beginner guide, because for now it's focused on advice that's not found very easily elsewhere.
I avoid underestimating how easy it might be to accidentally wait for a bus or train on the wrong side of the rail or road. Whenever I exit on one side when arriving at a place, I put effort into remembering to switch to the other side for leaving the place, if that's the correct side. If a trip is not familiar enough, I do not excessively delay checking my GPS location to verify that I'm going the right way.
Even if it's happened every time so far, I do not expect ...
[This will be added in a future version]